Relationship, Tinder.

My last relationship was almost 9 years ago. Almost a decade long, still there's a reason why am I not be in any one.

So my first love, I met through in Tagged way back 2009. Lets surname him as Zack. Zack as I can said my first one man that I encountered to meet. And even crazy, we are long distance relationship. We broke up after a year and half being together. I was a fool and I laughed to myself. He is not a bad guy, as far as I saw him. He is a really nice guy actually. He taught me what are life about, how to be nice, and how to live independently. He taught me, about not putting hope for you know a temporary stuff. 

I am not gonna lie, I was doing bad there, being immature etc. Oh well, first relationship and I was 19, hello?? Should I do the math? Just kidding. Anyway, we broke up without a solid reason. So I was a fool back then, waited for 6 yrs to move on. Hah! (can you see it) and I made it past 3 yrs to move on. 

3 years, I back on dating track. I've been catfished, I've been used by a guy for a tool to achieve what he want, I've been lied, I've been  deceived, you name it. I am not good in person meet up, I was too shy and my communication skill was a horror! BUT, it is not the end of the world. Not saying I am not givin up, but it just I need to be careful from now on and oh boy, the lesson were totally learned. The good thing, the presence of them in my life was a lesson of life for me. 

I am not gonna let them ruined my search. Hell naw! I still have faith there will be someone out there that worth my over decade waiting. 

So, I took a leap. Install Tinder. Hahahaha, ok, ok ok! Before hand, don't judge me. I am not into hook up anyway. Merely to look for friends, and networking and may lucky enough to meet the one. (that I was wrote on my profile). So the search is on! I was lucky I met a lotsa cool guy. But only one I person I made it to meet outside the tinder. Yash everybodeh, I went on meeting with this tinder guy. Idk what happened on me that time, and normally I look for excuse to not coming or don't want to meet. 

So the meet, took at his area, I took the chance to have blind-meet up with him, while I am outstationed in KL. So, JB-KL (crazy huh?) So far this guys quite nice. But I feel like there is something else that I'm dying to know. So I look up about him (girls, this is a no no rule ok, I je yang tak reti sabar) and I found about him. Too cool, cooolllll damn cool. I was like, the girl with him must be lucky girl. IDK

(my reaction when look up about him)

So, actually I think I slowly drive him away. I am just a potato, and he is kinda a premium sushi. So, I realize something, to get my dream guy, I need to work on it. I can't rely on wait for prince charming to come over. In modern world, I guess woman should take a step as well. To get good guys, we must choose. Enough looking what outside, started lookin for inside. 

So, I have been to a few tinder dates. BUT nothing goes far to another date. Just the first meet and thats it. Anyway, it wont make me stop cause I know, there he is will be. Who knows my fate will be like Ted. Maybe he there will I humming La Vie en Rose.

Someday